well it has been a while since I posted anything about my memories of Chris mostly because I was doing what he would want me to do and that is to dance which I did I performed in a new Nutcracker it was a whole well huge undertaking on my body but all that pain was worth it to be on stage again. I also have been trying to just survive the remander of the year I am glad this year is gone. I did find myself feeling a bit more sad then normal on the 26th mostly because this is when I would call Joy and talk to her and just reminisis about Chris. and just stare outside and look at the ice Crystals and the beautiful Alaska Winter cold Alaska winter but still beautiful and like I Always do I play our favorite song and just sit there and imagine him dancing with me again and again. I do pray this year of 2009 becomes smoother last year I think was a year that was harder to accept at times with out Chris though I would find myself thinking about what Chris would say about this and that and do anything to make me happy. As I grapple this new year I also grapple a question Do I or dont I open the box Joy left me that is full of memeories and secrets.
